I want love girl

I want love girl,
not that shit you did
and not the things you said,

Yeah, I want love girl,
not the daily drama
of the world you create,

I want love girl,
to do what you say
and live for the day,

I want love girl,
not any other way
now go on your way,
because if I wouldn't do that
then neither should you.

The angels son

The angels son
a devils father
tear the wings from the soul
a crows call echo's
the distance is carried
and the rocks fall
chasing demons
without all our sorrow
without tomorrow,

Let me explain it
just forget it
tell me again why
it's the sin
it's within
leave them alone,

Watch the angels son
pick up the wings
left and torn
embrace the damned
turn it around
for all to see
fall with me
deep beneath the sea.

My girl

I want to see your face
I want to remember the way you feel
I know I've done you wrong girl
I know what I did right.

I want to see that face again
I want to feel so close to you
I know I've done you wrong girl
so let me make it right.

I want to see your face
I want to relive the sensation of your skin
I want to revisit love with you girl
so come home to me tonight.

The alcoholic shame

Well I've opened up a bottle
just hit the throttle
now lets go,

Im broke
Im dead
Im a crazy one
Im love
Im still crazy
Im sober
Im angry
and still crazy

I guess I was born this way
I guess this is just the way it is
founding women
found problems
looking at me through the bottom of a bottle
don't you get it?

I warn people all the time
don't fall of the wagon!
don't listen to that voice in your head!
these demons are dangerous!
but what do I know?
keep doing what your doing
so far, so good
it's pushed me away thus far
but keep going
and see what happens

One day I dream
I awake and all is good
I awake and everyone's clean
now that Im clean are you still attracted?
doubt it, looking at me with hazy eye's
stepping into the dizziness and loneliness
just sit there and stare

Fuck it, you don't care?
so why should I
you would hate me if I did
that's how it works
I get to sit and watch
taring things so close apart
and my question is always the same,
why?

In my dream I stand among the sane
everyone's happy and dry
Im with loved one's who won't choose the poison
over the one's they love

So just keep up your antics
although I feel bad I still hate it
can't come with you
because you won't stop
just like everyone else
maybe I should move on
attract a sober human being-
but that sucks,
I wanted so bad to be with you
but you so bad want to be with poison
so drink yourself stupid
kill yourself
fuck yourself
whatever yourself
it makes me angry you don't even try

Let's keep going,
I know a genuis
but where is he?
he won't play
he won't baby sit
he won't stay home
he won't stay clean
drinks from the nipple of the poison
just keep killing yourself
you've burned your musical bridges
you've shown your son your ass
so he can grow up and hate you
but again, fuck it
kill yourself like everyone else does
sipping the nipple of the poison bottle.

Please Capricorn God

Please Capricorn God,
don't end a child.
Please again Capricorn God,
don't end a child.
I beg the Capricorn God.


The alcoholics have killed me,
from the time I lay asleep
in my mothers arms on the side of the street
with the officer asking,
why are you passed out
with a child in your arms?

The alcoholics have killed me,
taking me to the ends of the earth
half way across the United States
to leave me alone on my own
to fend for myself
to find out who is who
and who owns me as a father
at the lonely age of eight or so.

The alcoholics have killed me,
showing up to take command
after being vacant on my land,
to push and pull with no maturity
to take my pain to the ends of the earth
to fight over a boy like a doll or toy
to justify actions like you were entitled to a boy.

The alcoholics have killed me,
to have not heard from you in months
to not know what has happened to our family
to stay with elders and listen to them bicker and argue
to point fingers with blame and sorrow
releasing a complete lack of confidence instilled in me.

The alcoholics have killed me,
refuse the temptation to clean yourself up
choosing the poison over the loved ones
destroying everything in their path
including a future with my dad
or forgetting the horrors of my youth.

Please Capricorn God,
don't end a child
We are the Gods of this earth,
don't end a child
We are the only source of love,
we are the only God to answer to,
please Capricorn God,
don't end the children.

Life of life

There is a risk on the other side of the play.

It's dark over here leaping into the depths of hell.

Find someone you can really believe in.

Find someone to really be with.

Make your judgments and send out quality work.

Take notes to send off to the kids.

Leave this place as gentle as it was found.

My battle with fear

I have fear
It's real and not to be ignored
I have fear
It's there and not assigned to destroy.

I fear the things I cannot see
or the things I don't want to see
but that fear has a price
and it weighs heavy upon me.

A fear to live
A fear to breath
A fear to be
a fear of you
a fear of me

The aggravation stemmed from fear is heavy
the weight cannot support the frail structure,
a collapse of effort only to realize it's sillyness,
a sigh of relief to know I'm still human again,
a laugh to remember how stupid fear truly is.

The sit of wait.

I sit

I wait

I plummet the earth we take.

I want to believe you,

I sit

I wait

I await the news you take.

My desires come confused,

Like a mad man on the loose,

Like the water beneath me,

Or the sea that carries me.

I await the things you say.

Apart of you

The stupids rule
like sheep follow
the stupid swallow-
leaving those to waist in the world that hates
it's discrimination at it's best if you can relate,
it's a plan to hold a man down to show ignorance,
a plan to rape the village in order to preserve the colony,
a plan to kill the innocent in order to save the rich.

So why else kill?
Spill the sounds of horror or tears of laughter,
but the tears are from a hullicenagean, a narcotic, a spell you are under,
and I am under this spell as well, as I cannot seperate myself from you.

The one's I want so badly to blame, I know Im wrong.

Wrong like those who claim knowledge,
wrong like those who claim justice,
wrong like those seek revenge,
limiting ourselves in order to achieve...well,
the jokes on you my friend, I sit to spin the word,
but the word is not accepted by you - so just spew your shit
in order to save your ass in hopes for that "better tommorrow",
as long as you abide, a senile man will attemp the same; like that broken record.

Now the tangent is long and annoying,
annoyed at the people who can't hear the silence, don't know silence,
and continue to blame each other for this lack of silence.

I, too, am to blame. As Im am not seperate from you,
but apart of you.

A Stones Throw Away

And where is this one?
this 'supposed to be the one'
the last person who will ever last
or so they say, and some fail, and some collapse.
And how just one?
with so many shapes, colors and sizes
like snowflakes, seperate from each other, but not really,
they are all the same at first glance, and it's all the same now.
Time after time, she is there and then gone again,
I will call her, 'the impossible one'
this 'supposed to be a one', if one were ever so,
I can't believe it because I can't even see it
so again I let it go.